And I’m back!

I wanted to write a really nice long review on the Manifest party, but Ive been pretty busy ever since I got back and I have to get up early tomorrow morning so I will see how far I get with it. I can definatly say it was a great party! I wasnt performing this time, I had a shoot on friday and Saturday so that would have been a bit too much. Instead I just enjoyed and met some nice new people! The venue was really nice, you could walk around the different rooms in circles which I liked. The white main area with a dance floor and a stage/catwalk was very nicely lighted and I even belive the music didn’t suck. Unfortunatly I had hurt my toe and I was tightly sucked into a corset and a tight latex outfit so no dancing for me. I did enjoy the shows very much! they were announced and counted down to on big screens in different rooms so you had no excuse to miss them. Organisors, learn something from that, please! I hate missing the shows I came to see and to stand in the crowded dancing area the whole night not to miss out on anything is usually too much.

It’s late and I’m not in the mood to google everyone so forgive me I can’t remember all the performers by name. There was a great pinup-lingerie fashionshow. The girls, from extremely skinny to more then voluptuous were all very pretty and perfectly styled. It showed really nicely how girls in every size can look gorgeous!

Then there was a gay dude who looked like a a hot George Washington who did an elegant striptease. It was actually a really nice show! I also caught Rubberdoll and Faq. I have seen the performence several times but I never get tired of looking at her and her boobies.

There was more then enough room to sit down, which us ladies in high heels always appreciate ofcourse. And they even had clean restrooms! There was a fetish string-quartet playing classical music. That’s exactly what I had in mind for my party Cultus, but I never managed to do. I think classical music and fetishism go nicely hand in hand, and so Im not the only one luckily. It really made the party stand out from other fetish-events Ive been to. I bet you didn’t know I used to play violin myself! So maybe I’m a bit biased..

Also some very nice play-areas, amongst which a medical corner, which matched very nicely with the other white decor. Usually white location and fetish doesnt work, but because it was so nicely lighted, and it had some pretty chandeliers it gave a really nice chique atmoshpere. I always like that in the bigger parties. (the little ones can remain dark and seedy) There was enough play and anough to see. People were very lovely dressed! I saw several outfits that blew me away. Danish people all look like models to me anyway. And they’re so friendly and educated! If I say anymore nice things about Copenhagen and Manifest I’m sure you think I’m bullshitting you. But seriously, I can’t think of anything bad to say. At the end of the evening a very cute girl came up to me and said “do I have anything you can use?” ……… Jeesh, seriously! I’m not telling what happened after that haha!

Like I said I was shooting on Friday and Saturday with Eric Hansen-Hansen The shoot we did on Friday was for a new product called Bedstraps and although it was very tiring it was also a really , REALLY cool shoot. Both Eric the photographer and the guy who started Bedstraps were really super nice and positive people so that just made the whole shoot that much more fun. I can’t wait to show you the results, I think they will blow you away! They’re very pervy, that’s all I will say on that….

I also managed to do a little video with PublicFetishGirls. They usually have amateur girls on their site, which ofcourse I am not, but since the people who run the site are good friends and theyve been really nice to me I didnt mind making an exception at all. As you can guess, the video is of me walking through the street in a full fetish outfit. I was super nervous about it! I know it sounds weird coming from a model/perfomer, but Im actually not a natural exhibitionist at all. Cameras I love, but when people stare at me irl I just get super shy and uncomfortable! So it was a bit of a barrier-breaking thing for me to do. Believe me, people stared alright! But the look of black latex shimmering in the sunlight is a lovely sight. I think you will love the video and I will post it on my website and perhaps on youtube as well once Its edited. Exciting!

Other then that I spent a whole lot of time at the fetishshop of Latexa, where my friend Miss Fuzzy Bunny works. She also runs a latex fashion designer company together with her husband Kenneth called Strange Lifeforms, So ofcourse I could not help but return with a few extra rubber items in my suitcase. They have the cutest little workshop where they make such beautiful rubber clothing. The whole place smelled a sweet scent of rubber

All in all I had a great time spending a weekend in between perverts and creative minds. It gave me some new energie to focus on getting the new webbie and the accompaning paperwork sorted out. Right now I am in the midst of changing everything from one webmaster to another, and I am also changing servers, so some things like the Calendar I cant acces or change. Hence there are some things on there that are not in my actual planning, my apologies for that! A new update should be on by Sunday! Thank you for being so patient with me. I wish things moved faster! Soon this will all be over and things will be running smoothly. All for the better!

Kiss kiss..

PS; remind me to throw away my Bondinage slavegirl dress so I stop wearing it.. !!!

This weekend I am off to Copenhagen for the Danish fetishparty Manifest. I think itll be a blast! I am staying with the lovely miss Fuzzybunny and I have a few commercial shoots lined up.

This past weekend I was performing on the party B.I.T.C.H. Its usually not my type of party (I think its more kinky rather then fetish) but I did have a great time. There were a lot of people there! Definatly over a thousand. I did a new show on the mainstage which I have never done before together with a male friend (they insisted Id do a show with a guy, so that the ladies would have something to look at too) , including lots of shiny black rubber, a gasmask (in the beginning), boobies, red paint and water. It went really well and people were quite enthousiastic! Unfortunatly my rubber legging slipped down a bit due to the water, and while I was crawling across the stage I busted them Ill need some new ones!

I was wearing my cute House of Harlot pink pearlsheen dress before the show, but after the show I was so wet and fucked up from the paint and the water! The shower was very cold and I had to put on my little black cotton dress to dry up a bit because there were no towels. So after my show I mostly stayed backstage with the regular Dutch fetish crew. I did catch the Ropemarks show and it was very sexy! I tried to go out and enjoy the party a bit, but everytime I did I’d run into someone I knew so I never got very far.

Oh look what somebody sent me; its me in Barcelona! I have no idea what it says but I think it has something to do with fashion

I just updated the FanZone gallery with a new series of me with Maria Kalista. We had great chemistry so you should definatly check it out! Oh and I did her make-up in this series.

I am still trying to sort out webmaster-stuff. I wont bore you with the technical details but I can tell you its a headache and I’m still covered in legal stuff and paperwork. It sucks!

I got my two spynxkitten-babies last week and I am enjoying them thouroughly! The girl has been mentioned here before and is named Dita, I also couldn’t resist her little brother and I named him Calvus. Its a Latin name for someone who’s bald, and as you know they’re hairless cats so its perfect. They smell like baby and they keep me warm at night! I can’t stop playing with their little wrinkles.

I’ve also been spending hours on my new FHM column! Its now changed to over a 1000 words (that’s writers-language for A LOT) and I still need to get used to the fact that it takes a lot more of time! I usually write a lot more at first, and then edit out what I like least. The topic I’m writing about now is making your own porn!

Tomorrow I’m going down to my hometown of Rotterdam to do an interview with the newspaper Algemeen Dagblad/Rotterdams Dagblad about my favorite fetishshops there. I feel really excited to have this chance to promote the fetishcommunity in my hometown!

Spent the other night on tv with Giel Beelen on location from Woodstock festival, but I have no piccies for now, sorry!

It has been confirmed that I will be performing at the big Dutch kinky party Bitch Festival. It will be held next Saturday Sept 6th near Amsterdam. I don’t do many shows in the Netherlands, and I will be performing a new act for this party. Stop by if you like big parties!

I will also be attending Manifest in Copenhagen. I’m really excited about that because I love Denmark and the people there. A good fetishparty to go to, to kick off the European fetish-season!

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Rifles are very unusual in Europe, except for the occasional hunter. We dont have a right to guns in Europe like you do in the U.S. So when someone does have a gun, its very awkward. The guy had told him we were trespassing and that we had to leave. But since the castle isnt owned by anyone, why would he have the right to tell us anything? Especially since we werent vandalizing or anything. Badpakje had said he had to go get his friends, but since it didnt sound at all like the man was an official, more just a nosy neighbour, we didnt make any moves to leave and soon after we heard the guy leaving on his motorvehicle. Phew!

We finished off the shoot and I quickly changed so we could have a final quick tour of the place, before we would go back home. Badpakje and Patrick were putting away the lights into the van, so I already went inside. I had only just stepped in when I heard arguing outside so I went back to see what is up. A guy with an suv was throwing a fit at the guys, saying how we were trespassing, and how we had a big problem. It was very bizarre. When he saw me coming up he quickly finished his rant and stepped into his car saying we were going to pay for this!!… Patrick just kept apologizing and saying how we hadnt meant any harm and how we were just looking. I was very happy I was no longer in my nuns-outfit! We were all a bit confused by what he had meant, by it was clear we had to get out of there. What a shame, there were so many rooms I hadnt seen yet! I would have loved to have visited the clocktower and the dungeon. (yes, there was one!)

Once we drove off, it became clear what the guy had meant. He had blocked the only road out with his SUV! We could see him sitting in the garden of his very expensive landhouse. Fuck?? What were we going to do?? We discussed in the car for a few moment, deciding that if it came to that we would call the police first. The place isnt officially owned by anyone we believe, and as the students earlier in the day, and many online videos prove the castle is being visited by people all the time, for years on end. Now all of a sudden we were the bad guys? There was only one thing to do, and that is to go talk to the guy. Maybe now that I was there it would help, the guys figured. So we rang the bell … Nothing. We rang it again. Talking inside. Tapping our feet and looking at out watches. A woman opened a sidedoor and blankly looked at us. We believe your husband blocked the exit and we would like to leave. We didnt mean any harm and were leaving now we said. We got another, kinder rant from the woman. About how this was their property (yeah right..) and how we would feel if she was walking in our backyard. If I had a backyard like theirs, I would probably say; wow, youve come all the way from Holland to see my backyard? How lovely! Would you like some tea, a biscuit? Please, sit down and be welcome!!….. But I kept quiet. Being half Belgian, I know they can sometimes overreact to following rules and discipline. No offence if you happen to be Belgian like me. I knew they just wanted to rant and show us they were superior. Respect my authority!! As Cartman would say.. We would bow at their feet, kiss their shoes, apologise and accept that we were inferior, and they would let us go. Lo and behold, it worked! My husband will let you go in fifteen minutes She said. And off we were, pictures securely in our cases

Yesterday I shot with Patrick Ceuppens in an abandoned castle in Belgium. It was totally incredible!

I was picked up early in the morning by forumee Badpakje (means bathingsuit.. for his bathingsuitfetish), who was nice enough to gives us a ride with the van and assist in our photoshoot for the day. From Badpakjes house to mine, to Patricks in Antwerp, to the castle was an impressive ride of 6hours (and back!) But a fun one, catching up on the latest news in fetish and me doing my hair and make-up. It was funny, Patrick and me had arranged a nun-costume especially for this photoshoot, and on the drive down to the castle we passed through the little village where I spent some of my childhood in a catholic school. Where I had experienced real-life nuns for the first time as a young girl. A good sign perhaps?

After driving for hours on end, through the forest and not knowing for sure if we were at the right place, an amazing gothic-style castle appeared in front of us, like out of nowhere. It was totally surreal! The place has been abandoned for over 15 years and you can really see nature reclaimed it. It is one of the most beautiful buildings mankind has ever built, and it is now beyong repair. Such a tragedy, really. Can you imagine people lived here once upon a time?? Anyway, I really wanted to do a little dance of joy that we arrived at the place. We were officially trespassing and it was like discovering a secret jewel that is not suppose to be seen! I hope Im not becoming addicted to abandoned places??

After a quick bite to eat we started exploring the place a little bit. It was actually a bit dangerous, because a lot of the ceilings are coming down and the floors are not very trustworthy. I can go on and on about how beautiful it was, but you can see the photos. I am not quickly scared and all, and I always find it a challenge to find things (movies, amusementpark ghosthouses, pictures of spiders) that scare me. I have to admit though, this place was actually creeping me out a little bit! Maybe because it is so beautiful, so surreal and of such stature, that you instinctly feel that there must be something very wrong with it, for it to be standing here abandoned and for only us to see.

You can imagine my scare, when I suddenly heard whispering voices. They sounded quite far though, so it was hard to hear what kind of company we had.. Although Im not sure if ghosts and live people sound any different. I walked into the next room, well I dont know a better word but it was not an ordinary small room. When I turned around the corner I jumped a hole in the air and squeecked! A big group of students with cameras in their hands were looking at me and giggled. I discretely waved and blushed, before moving on the the rest of the rooms.

We didnt have enough time to explore the whole castle, because we had to finish the photoshoot before it got too dark and too cold. Although it was sunny day, the inside of the caslte was already cool and there was a chilling light breeze everywhere. We would have closed a window but all 550 of them were broken. So no more fun and games, off to work! I got to scare the students back, because when they came off the stairs all of a sudden there was a mysterious nun standing downstairs, haha! They left soon after and we had the place to ourselves.

We did a shoot on the stairs of the main hall at the entrance, because of the pretty ceiling and the size. It took some time to set up the lights though, and I got cold pretty quickly. It was also getting more dark inside, and we had to drive all 6 hours back to Holland after the photoshoot, or I would have done another outfit there. We did do a quick shoot outside in the back of the castle, where the garden had some beautiful old stairs. When we were almost finished, Badpakje came running back and told us that there was a man with a rifle standing in the front…

Abondoned Castle - part two … Only on my website from tomorrow on!

Oh my god things are so crazy right now.. As you know I am hiring a new webmaster, but it’s really a pain in the butt. The guy I found is great and I really want to hire him. It will happen, it just won’t go easily. It’s just so much to take into account; negotiations, piles of paperwork, different calculations that apply to different options, and a massive amount of taxes to hire an actual employee, courtesy of the Royal Kingdom of the Netherlands. I wish I could move faster, but I can’t! I keep telling myself I will look back in two years time and laugh about this situation. But right now it’s not easy and taking a lot of my energy to hang in there and not give up AncillaTilia.com! I’m just really impatient to make massive improvements to my website, create more exclusive material, and do better promotion. Let alone my new role as a “boss”, it will take some getting use to! I’m sure anyone with their own company can relate. Appearently in Asia, when people don’t like you they’ll “wish you a lot of personnel”! But do it right or don’t do it at all, right??

So.. I was really happy when I got invited to my friend Ms. Suzn’s wedding Romance, what a perfect way to take my mind off of things! I’d never really been to a wedding before, except one of a friends friend, and it was really lame. It just seems like Dutch people don’t get married much, or at least not the people in my envirement. So I was really exstatic Suzn found the man of her wildest dreams, and that I got to experience an actual wedding! I myself almost got married in Las Vegas once upon a time.. I thought it would be really cool and cheesy! But then when we got there I found the place to be so horrendous I didn’t want the memory of “the best day of my life” to be stuck to that place. So eventually we didn’t. But if you don’t register the wedding in Holland, it doesn’t count when you get married in Vegas I don’t think I’d get married “for real” really fast or easily. Besides, I can’t, a Thai fortune teller once told me I shouldn’t get married before 30

My crazy idiotic friends. Suzn, Mari, Peter, Me-chiel, Amarantha, & Saryn.

You can see me thinking.. “Oh my god, am I next..?”

So back to Suzn! Everyone who knows “Suusje” knows that when she gets married, it won’t be a conventional wedding! When I arrived to the cityhall of the beautiful city of Alkmaar, there was a beautiful pink cadillac outside and I knew I had arrived at the right place. She walked down the aisle to the tunes of rockmusic. She looked absolutely gorgeous! The contrast of her with pink rockabilly hair, her trademark tattoos and piercings and wearing a stunning white weddingdress was just great. I loved how, for the special occasion, her rough piercings had a romantic touch. After the “I-do’s” we went outside to blow soapbubbles onto the happy newlyweds.

The afterparty was awesome. Nothing fancy, just at someone’s house, but a lot of fun and nice people. Ofcourse there was a selection of fetishpeople there too, and we found it to be hilarious to see eachother OUT of rubber! I realised that I haven’t even seen some of my friends in vanilla wear, ever! Ofcourse all the single girls got rounded up and the bouquet got thrown.. And guess who cought it? “Oh my god, am I next???” Appearently so!

This weekend I attended the biggest Dutch Rockfestival; Lowlands. It attracts about 60.000 visitors every year and I was there with the radiostation 3fm. As usual on Fridaynight, it was broadcasted on tv too. Here’s a still of the show!

Do you like my new psychopath glasses?

Lowlands is the one time a year when I don’t wear a fetishoutfit to the show. If you’ve ever been to a big musicfestival I’m sure you’ll know why! I did bring my rubber rainboots though So I really went all out with the rockchick-look. Maybe a bit too much, because all of a sudden a big group of mentally handicapt people started waving at me. I was a bit suprised but waved back, when they started yelling “Anouk, Anouk!!” Ouch.. I just got mistaken for a major rockstar. Hahahah! I felt a bit embaressed I wasn’t her, they must have been very dissapointed!

The weather was great on Saturday so no reason to wear my pretty shiny black rainboots. I am not one to stand in line to see all the bands playing, but I did catch N*E*R*D*, whom I love. (actually, I had a meet & greet with them once!) Still I can tell I’m a very visual person and I really enjoyed watching an animation movie called Peurs de Noir most. Very impressively made!

Unfortunatly I am feeling under the weather and so I went home early. No need to keep people on the camping up with my coughing! Today I’m taking a chill day, catching up on email and going to the gym.

As for the Fanzone, I know it’s a bit quiet but see it as silence before the storm

Wait! Before I tell you about my day, I want to mention that you should go and check out the galleries because I just uploaded a new series of me in my cute little Atsuko Kudo dress! My boobs look really big in it, go check it out

Today I took a trip to the workshop of Bizarre Design corsets in Amsterdam. I admit, their website looks like utter sh*t, but Jeroen who runs it has been one of the very best corset designers in the world for the past 20 years. I am so honoured he lives right here in the same city as I do!

It was absolutely a sheer delight being in his workshop, surrounded by all the expensive silk fabrics, patterns, fetishbooks and drawings on every shelf and ofcourse… dozands of beautiful corsets. And I got to try them on! It was like being a kid in a candyshop. (although even as an adult candyshows still make me pretty damn happy too..)

Most of his corsets are really made for waist-reduction, not just for looking pretty. He has even made corsets for Cathy Jung , the woman with the smallest waist in the world. That’s bizarre, alright! I have always had an unusually small waist and I like wearing corsets to accentuate the unusual hip/waist ratio. I haven’t worn many the past few months, but being surrounded by the art of corsets and being tightlaced like that has made me realise how much I missed that. Jeroen told me that in the 90’s there were some corset-parties. I find it intiguing that while latex has never been more popular, the love for corsets seems to have died out, almost. I can hardly think of any real corset parties in this time and age. What a shame! Guess there isn’t enough money in the business to make it go around.

While I do have an unusually small waist, Jeroen told me that I actually cannot lace up much smaller. Appearently I am too muscular! Isn’t that funny.. and there I thought working out was going to improve your waistline, haha! Because muscles don’t give in much, it’s harder to tightlace a fit person as oppose to a less muscled midriff. Jeroen had a beautiful pink brocade corset-dress with matching neck-corset. (gaga!! oh my gosh neck-corsets things make me hot) But seeing it on the mannequin it looks super petite and I was pretty sure I would never-ever fit into it. But… Tadaaaaaaaaaa!

I went to an awesome birthday party yesterday! It was the added 117th birthday party of three well-known fetishists in the Dutch scene. Rio, Madame Jeanette (loved for her bosom and adored for her fun-loving personality) and Nico2000 (co-organisor of Boudoir Bizarre) had invited everyone to come and celebrate on a regular party called the Showboat. It’s a known Dutch party that I’d actually never been to before Friday. For some reason I just haven’t gotten around to it! It’s more an SM-Fetish Play Party rather then a Fetish fashion party. That means an older and less fashionable crowd, in general. As the name tells you, it’s on a boat and held once a month. When it’s not a fetishclub it’s a “regular” couples club. (sexclub for couples)

I met at my friends Bob & Chantal “Ropemarks” awesome new house. It’s really bright and happy, but it also sports their typical ropemarks colours red & yellow, and lots of pretty bondage art on the wall. They even have a “bondage/video-floor” way on top! Their three darling kitties welcoming you at the door is nice too, I’m feeling deprived of kittie loving! Only three more weeks before I get mine.. But I’m drifting.. I was saying it’s really nice when you can be so open about your fetish and decorate your appartment accordingly! We had dinner together, catching up on the wide world of fetish/shibari and getting ready for the party later. I was starting to become a bit curious what the party was like, because frankly I’ve visited lots of great fetishparties all over the world and that I’d never been to our own famous Showboat is just crazy! Like I said it’s not a really a fashion party so I opted for a simple but chic lang black latex gown and “kinky hair”. We then picked up our other friends Miss Mirjana and her significant other and off we were.

Taking pictures is not allowed on the Showboat, so I was lucky to sneak in this vague one. Left birthdaygirl Madame Jeanette, me, Chantal “Ropemarks”.

Arrived at the showboat, the entrance was quite “couples-club”-like, with branches to hide the discrete entrance to the door. The boat has actually been purposly set on fire some time ago, but thankfully no-one got hurt and and the damage has been managed. It was really busy and the first thing I noticed was how big the place was, with many cozy rooms and different play-areas, food and dance area. Absolutely everyone in the Dutch fetish scene was there, I won’t even start to name the people I met there. It was like one big family gathering of freaky people and I realised I had almost forgotten how much I love my scene and the people in it. I’m not sure how many people but I would say 300 at least. Quite a lot for such a party!

There were some shows, one with a striptease dancer of some sort and the birthday-people got to lick whipped cream and strawberries off of her. Afterwards a Mistress/slave show by Lucrezia from Belgium, who is known to be “extreme in everything”. She did her name justice, once again. Then I danced, talked and partied with my friends untill deep in the night. What a great way to celebrate your birthday!

The new FHM is out and DAMN!!! It’s smokin’…

The main photoshoot (with a famous Dutch actress) is a series by Edland Man, who’s awesome work you know from the last Cultus flyer. Dayumn that man is good with a camera.

My monthly “ask Ancilla” page has been upgraded to a full-page column and a full-page pic. So this month’s FHM features the very first edition of my “memoires“. Very exciting because I wrote it A to Z! If you’re Dutch-speaking I’d be happy to hear what you think of it in my forum or on my hyves-blog.

Updates;

I’m sure you noticed the new slideshow on my website’s news page! It features some hot new previews of what’s to come this month. Heavy rubber, girlfriends, cute latex outfits, the whole shabang!

Dear boys and girls,

Damn monday already! Actually I quite like monday. It’s the day when I always have fresh courage to catch up on my email and get out of bed in time to call official offices. I’m such a nightperson, it’s always a challenge for me to get out of bed before the sun goes down! I’m one of the worst I know, sometimes I don’t get to bed untill 10am. What can I say? The night is so nice and peaceful and the perfect time to concentrate for computer-related stuff, since I don’t get called every 5 minutes. (although I must say now that people know I’m still up at 5am my phone is starting to get a bit more socially busy in the nighttime too, haha!) But usually on Monday I’m a good girl and I try to be awake when everyone else is, too.

Well, as you know I spent Fridaynight on tv, and here are some stills from the show;

It was crazy chaotic fun, as always. But I ripped my black latex leggings from Simon O! I think it’s because I was wearing peeptoe heels, and the tip of the sock got so streched from my foot weighing into it, that both of my tiptoes just broke. Maybe also because I’ve been wearing them non-stop since I got them. I’ll turn them into footless leggings, but I’m still bummed! They were my favorites..

I wore my House of Harlot corset on top, which is part of my showcostume for the baroque show. I’ve had it for three years, but still I’ve never done a photoshoot in it! I was kind of saving it for photographer Christophe Mourthe, but for some reason we just can’t seem to find a good date to shoot. I’ll be shooting the dress soon, with or without him. The feeling of that rubber corset is just delish!! I believe the viewers of the show quite liked it too.

On Saturday I went to a naughty beach party on a secret location. Not a fetishparty, but more high-end “swinger” oriented. I’d never been to one, so it was about time! It’s not totally “my thing”, I still prefer fetishparties, but I had did have a good time and there were lots of sexy people. I’ll probably dedicate my next FHM column to sexy parties! As a writer, I need to do research, right? Oh how I love my job!!

Then today I had my first driving lessons (again). It’s been 5 years since I’ve driven a car last, but I was pleased to notice I hadn’t completely forgotten everything. Now I hope to have my licence in a month (or two..). I really love driving. Maybe when I’m older I’ll become a truck driver for a year or so. I think I’d like it, the travelling and the loneliness, for a short period of time. I really like diversity and I really admire people who have had really diverse lives/jobs. But maybe I should get my licence first, before I start drifting.. gheghe!

Other then that I’ve finally taken the time to put music on my ipod, so I expect to be skipping the gym less now that I have something to move to.

UPDATES:

Well, this week I am putting up a new slideshow with previews of what’s to come this month. It’s a bit of a mess right now or I would have had it up already. I’ve been shooting quite a lot the past month so I kind of forgot what I did and what photo’s I still need to receive from people. But this month’s updates will be pretty cool, I promise!

I don’t have many pics to share with you, so before I go on blabbing away here’s one taken at a recent burlesque party in Amsterdam!

I almost forgot to mention I put up a new “big bio” in the FanZone! I talk a bit more about how I got into fetish and why I love it so much. I am thinking about adding a bit more stuff about my personal history too. So far I haven’t done that, because basically I’ve had to deal with a lot of stuff in my life that wasn’t very pleasant. I was convinced you guys are just here for the pretty pictures and to add some happiness in your own lives, not to read sad stories.

Now recently I have been doing a lot of interviews and bits and pieces of my life have been published here and there. Now I think it would be nicer for me to share the whole truth and nothing but the truth with you on my website, so there’s no confusion because things are published out of context. Feel free to let me know how you feel on the topic!

Also I added little bits of info with the recently updated photoseries, and a really hot sexy series called “Caramel” went up today. I’m wearing a super hot outfit by House of Bias!

In real life my good friend and fetishist Paul Nathan from San Francisco dropped by, which I’m sure you all know as the funny energetic host from the Fetish Evolution parties in Germany. I got to play tourguide of Amsterdam again! Not that I mind, I always do when I have foreign friends over. My city is a good city to be in! Besides being a kick-ass magician, Paul is also an Absinthe expert, so we went to some distilleries and the Waterloo market to look for antiques. That way I also get to see corners of the city that I usually wouldn’t visit.

On monday I start my driving lessons!! I know you’re thinking how it can possibly be that I don’t have one yet. Well, me too, so now I’m getting one. In Holland you can’t start driving untill you’re over 18 (but you can drink when you’re 16 :-)) and besides the lessons my mom gave me when I was 10 years old -”just in case”- I started working on my license right when I turned 18. But before I actually got my certificate my modelling career took off and I got busy travelling around the globe. Not a bad excuse, eh?? But now it’s enough with the excuses, not having a license was starting to bug me, even though you can easily get around without driving in a country like Holland with great public transport and small distances. I have to say I’m a bit nervous! I already forgot everything.. Wish me luck!

Now I need to get some sleep! Tomorrow (Fridaynight) I’m doing my regular thing on the Dutch tv-show “Freaknacht”. I look forward to doing it again, it’s been almost three weeks cuz I missed a week! It’s a late night show (very much like Howard Stern) and we always get up to crazy stuff. Here’s me getting slapped, here’s me getting a lapdance, and here’s me throwing last year’s birthday cake all over myself. Oh and let’s not forget this one where I am showing off my bimbo butt.  Now aren’t you bummed you don’t have Dutch tv?

Hey sweetnessssss..

After a lot of rain and storm in Holland, it’s now gotten to be a 30 degrees celcius and extremely humid, I feel like I’m melting away! More sunshine and less sweat, pleaaaaase! What a summer..

There has been some slow but good progress in the process of hiring a new webmaster. I found someone that I have a lot of trust in, so now it’s down to negotiations and paperwork, It’s stressful, but I’m pleased! It’s going a bit slower because a lot of people are on holiday, and I need them to do paperwork and all that. But it’s going forward and that’s good and patience gets rewarded, right?! I’ll just be so happy when this whole transferring thing is over and this website can ROCK even harder!

There isn’t much going on in fetishland. At least, in Europe there aren’t many festivities and it seems like fetish, even for many rigid fetishists takes a backseat. Blame it on the supposed heat, or the fact that family and holiday take a priority in the summertime, but people don’t seem to feel like fetishparties in summer. So, not many fun parties and I’m missing a lot of my regular fetishfriends!

That was why, I was really happy when on Saturday I finally made it to Bal du Masque in Amsterdam. It’s not exactly a fetishparty as in latex, but just as the name says, it’s a masked ball and besides a small gothic crowd, you can also find some fetishists there. I got to catch up with my friends Amarantha LaBlanche , Peter Diablow and Miss Mirjana was nice enough to give me a ride and she brought her American houseguest, hairdresser Patrick Biyoshi along with her. It was absolutely an excellent night. Everyone was so beautifully dressed, I haven’t seen anything like it on a long time. It really was like walking into a party at a renaissance cemetary. The venue was perfect for it too, small, with a cosy bar, chandeleers and a nice little stage where the performences were held. Which were not for the faint of heart, or for blood-phobics for that matter. Unfortunatly I don’t have pictures of the party just yet, but once i get them you’ll be the first to see!

I’ve been dying to tell you about my shoot with Maria Kalista! It’s this delightful French girl that I only met a few months ago at an international fetishevent. We really hit it off so she and her main photographer Phoebus came to Amsterdam to shoot with me. It was so much fun finally shooting together with a girl again and she was really very sexy and sweet. I got to perfectionise my make-up skills on her pretty face, too! If I had more hours in a day I would become a make-up artist. Here’s us getting ready to play with the vacuumbed!

We also did a glamour latexshoot with pearlsheen outfits, a total of four different photosets coming up

Then I’ve been doing some more mainstream parties in Holland, too! On my birthday (thank you if you were one of the people who sent me an email or a card!) I got hire to stand at the door and welcome people for the Rotterdam airracing afterparty, and on Friday I did the guestlist for a company called Dutch Grooves, where I was doing the guestlist/ being a “doorbitch”. Usually I hate the girls who do that, because they’re so arrogant and they make a sport of turning you down because you’re not “hip” enough to get into the club. This time I was the girl standing there and having to let some people in, and turn some people down! It was a weird experience, but I hope I did a good job in turning people down nicely.

Here’s me being a bitch with another doorbitch, then there’s some lovin’ when I let people in, and afterwards I got to do some partying myself

And some more pics of me in party modus! If there were more fetishparties, I’d be wearing something more fetishy. Please forgive me

On the left me with my fellow Playmate Priscilla, and on the right me with my boob out. Just cuz I can, hihi!

This is what I did today. Jealous?

Don’t worry, I’m not pregnant, but I am expecting…!

Let me introduce my new roommate; Dita! The raven (haired) beauty..

After my dear cat ms. P died, I decided it would be time for me to look for a new love in my life. I have wanted a bald kitten, a sphynx cat, for at least 8 years. I’ve always had (adopted) cats so it wasn’t wise to take one before or I was starting to look like one of those little old cat-ladies. They’re also fairly expensive so I had to save up for a while. Now my birthday is coming up and it’ll be the most perfect birthday-gift I’ve ever gotten myself, haha! I’m considering taking two so they can play together, but that means you’ll all have to sign up to my website so I can afford one more!

This is one right after it was born..

Caught harassing his brother..

So after reading up on the subject on cat-forums I found a family that was very lovely, very professional and knowledgable in breeding and that had two black Sphynxes, one of which is expecting. I met the family for a take-in. The pregnancy was very planned and they weren’t planning to give away their kitties to just anyone! Although I had a bit of trouble explaining what it is I do for a job exactly, they were very lovely openminded people and I made a deal to come back after the kitties were born. Now a few weeks ago I got the happy news that their cat had delivered 7 (!!!) healthy baby-cats through a ceserian. I had informed them upfront that I preferred a girl, and lo and behold, between 6 screaming brothers, there she was, one healthy babygirl!

Me with all of them. Dita is the one with the blue collar!

Brother & Sister. Doesn’t she have the cutest face??

Now I know, these cats are not for everyone. I admit they look a little bit like bat-eared rats, but I still think they’re the most beautiful creatures I’ve ever seen! Although they look a bit creepy, the breed is known to have one of the kindest and most social characters. Quarter cat, quarter dog, quarter child, quarter monkey. They feel a bit like a suede warm-water jar and they like to keep you warm when you go to sleep. You either love or hate, there’s no way inbetween. Just pretend you love them as much as I do okay?

As they’re still quite young they will be staying with their bio-mommy untill september. I can’t wait, I feel so lonely without anyone rolling around on my keyboard as I’m typing this! I wonder if they’d look like wrinkly rubber when you oil them up..?

Oh, I know you’re probably getting impatient by now, but don’t panick, there’s a new update coming your way in a few hours. The hooded series is up first and after that a real treat for lovers of delicious shiny black feminine latex. This weekend I will be going back to my photostudio for a duo-shoot with a hot new model. I cannot wait, it’s been to long since I’ve had a playdate over!